Monday, 31 December 2007
For those outside of the Manchester area this can be listened to on-line at http://www.bbc.co.uk/manchester/local_radio/ . Just press the orange button 'listen live' on the right hand side half way down. Although I do not know for certain I suspect that this part of Alan's show will not be available to listen later via the 'listen again' facility.
Sunday, 30 December 2007
Wednesday, 26 December 2007
"This “other being” is the other person in ourselves – that larger and greater personality maturing within us, whom we have already met as the inner friend of the soul. That is why we take comfort whenever we find the friend and companion depicted in a ritual, an example being the friendship between Mithras and the sun-god. This relationship is a mystery to the scientific intellect, because the intellect is accustomed to regard these things unsympathetically. But if it made allowance for feeling, we would discover that it is the friend whom the sun-god takes with him on his chariot, as shown in the monuments. It is the representation of a friendship between two men which is simply the outer reflection of an inner fact: it reveals our relationship to that inner friend of the soul into whom Nature herself would like to change us – that other person who we also are and yet can never attain to completely. We are that pair of Dioscuri, one of whom is mortal and the other immortal, and who, though always together, can never be made completely one. The transformation processes strive to approximate them to one another, but our consciousness is aware of resistances, because the other person seems strange and uncanny, and because we cannot get accustomed to the idea that we are not absolute master in our own house. We should prefer to be always “I” and nothing else. But we are confronted with that inner friend or foe, and whether he is our friend or foe depends on ourselves.
You need not be insane to hear his voice. On the contrary, it is the simplest and most natural thing imaginable. For instance, you can ask yourself a question to which “he” gives answer. The discussion is then carried on as in any other conversation. You can describe it as mere “associating” or “talking to oneself”, or as a “meditation” in the sense used by the old alchemists, who referred to their interlocutor as aliquem alium internum, “a certain other one, within” This form of colloquy with the friend of the soul was even admitted by Ignatius Loyola into the technique of his Exercitia spiritualia, but with the limiting condition that only the person meditating is allowed to speak, whereas the inner responses are passed over as being merely human and therefore to be repudiated. … But a real colloquy becomes possible only when the ego acknowledges the existence of a partner to the discussion…. (p. 132)
[It is about transformation] “It is my own transformation – not a personal transformation, but the transformation of what is mortal in me into what is immortal. It shakes off the mortal husk that I am and wakens to a life of its own; it mounts the sun-barge and may take me with it”. (~ C.G. Jung, “Concerning Rebirth”, The Archetypes and the Collective Unconscious, C.W. volume 9i. Page 134)
Interesting is it not.
Saturday, 22 December 2007
I note that Amazon USA sold out of ITLAD a few days ago but now have new stocks in. Yet again another good sign of healthy sales.
May I wish a very happy Christmas to all of you guys who involve yourself in this blogsite. You all have many things to do in your lives but you find time to read this site and contribute. Thank you for this - it really is appreciated and never, ever, taken for granted.
Lets see what 2008 has to hold.
Friday, 21 December 2007
You will find that most of this goes over old ground but as this can be downloaded you can then keep it and even maybe bore to death your friends and relations with it!!!
Thursday, 20 December 2007
Now for the real stunner. The CD was released on ... September 11th 2001! A day or so later the band made the following announcement:We are all OK....
Our sessions today are obviously cancelled as NYC is sealed shut and we will return to NYC to continue whenever it re-opens.
In regard to the live album's cover art, I can only say that it is a horrible coincidence that we obviously could have never forseen. The timing of the release of the CD happening on the very same day as this tragedy is merely an incredible coincidence. We are currently in discussions with the label as to whether or not we will recall the CD's and replace them with a different cover. Obviously, the recovery of everybody's personal lives here in New York is the first priority
Thank you to all concerned,
But clearly somebody did foresee the events - and tried to subliminally communicate them in the same way that somebody tried to communicate with Boots Riley of Coup.
Was that somebody the Daemon?
Wednesday, 19 December 2007
I saw the TV programme on Daniel Tammet and I went out and got hold of a copy of the book. I knew exactly what I was looking for - did he have epilepsy (crucial to my theory)? - and this was confirmed in the book. In ITLAD I discuss the Russian memory-man Sherenevsky. As well as amazing memory recall this man also had extreme synaesthesia (you may recall his description of a symphony by Shostokovich). Sherenevsky also had TLE and believed that he shared his consciousness with another person (his Daemon?).
With regard to this whole savant-syndrome thing may I suggest two books that are an absolute must read. One is Darrold A Treffert's 'Extraordinary People', and the other is Oliver Sacks' 'An Anthropologist on Mars. The former author was the consultant for the film Rain Man. This book is full of fascinating examples of synaesthesia and amazing memories with individuals who seem to have another section to their brain that they can instantaneously access with no conscious intention. Some of these people have epilepsy. To me this implies that certain individuals have access to the memory banks and information processing ability usually only available to the Daemon.
The latter has a fascinating section on an Italian artist who seems to have a form of total-recall with regard to his childhood memories. On reading this I knew what was coming next and I was right - the artist has TLE!
About two and a half years ago whilst living in New York i saw an amazing documentary about several people with autistic conditions, among these people were Daniel Tammet. Daniel has Savant Syndrome but the documentary itself was about a condition which set Daniel apart from many others with similar conditions, that being "Synaethesia". This is a condition in which a person's senses are mixed; they see number and words in colours, they see numbers within sounds and this condition has allowed Daniel to achieve some virtualy impossible mathematical feats. I became fascinated by this condition after seeing this documentary, the people who have this conditon said that it is, at times, the most frustrating thing in the world, but they wouldn't trade it in a million years.
I'm about two thirds of my way through his (Daniels) book "Born on a Blue Day." If you were thinking of reading this, don't be put off by the quote from Richard and Judy on the front cover, it is, in fact, an amazing read! It fluctuates from a rather personal account of his struggle to learn the social skills needed to join the rest of the world, to examples of his extraordinary mind.
The reason that i posted this is because the condition is linked so much with Daniel's use of the right side of his brain. Daniel had sevral epileptic attacks when he was younger which, in his opinion, may have caused his condition. I expect many of you will have heard of Daniel but thought i'd post this to see if anybody had anything else to share, particularly about "Synaethesia" which i find fascinating.
On a side note, i was reading last night and came across the word "Demonstrated" - Demon - st"ar"ted. I'm far too lazy to look up the origin of the word but i'm sure somebody can tell me why this little coincidence popped up! I've been up since 5.00am and can't sleep, have a greaaaaaaat day!
Friday, 14 December 2007
In 1610 the final draft and polishing of the Authorised (King James Version) of the Bible was completed.
Now if you have a copy look up Psalm 46 and count 46 words from the beginning of the psalm. You will find that you have arrived at the word "shake". Now, discounting the word "Selah", count 46 words from the end of the psalm and the word revealed is "spear".
Now in 1610 Shakespeare would have been 46 years old (having been born in 1564). Is this a coincidence or something that the translators did in honour of the Bard? If so it would have taken a good deal of manipulation of the text to get it to work so well. Not impossible I agree but some effort.
Thursday, 13 December 2007
Art is involved in a world-wide survey of the deja phenomenon and has an on-line survey. If you have a moment please check this out and maybe complete it. The more data Art has the more statistically valid his conclusions will be.
The survey can be found at http://silenroc.com/dejavu/ .
Wednesday, 12 December 2007
Does anyone have any similar personal experience of this?
"What an incredible blog! I was directed here through a (standing) Google alert on right brain/left brain.
I've poked around a bit, and found so much food for thought. Being one who is consistently "hungry," there's no doubt that I'll return regularly to see what's being discussed."
What more can I say - and this is down to all of us .... and I am hoping that Robin, who is a very interesting artist, will join in on a more formal basis.
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
Monday, 10 December 2007
Sunday, 9 December 2007
The main idea which comes accross through the lovely visuals seemed to me to be this: That the 2,000 year rule of Christianity and the Church ( the magisterium) has perhaps reached its apex and reversal, having failed to acknowledge gnosticism's concept of the heavenly twin of consciousness (the Daemon), and the ensuing inwardness of ethics and faith (this was Keirkegaard's main thrust in his polemic against the organized Christendom of his day).
Having failed to inherit Gnosticism's key insight, it can therefore not surpass it, and fails to evolve. In this sense it thwarts a higher ethics and understanding which is the 21st century's due. The conflict between Christianity today and the vast technodemocracy of most of the globe is therefore no mere accident; but symptom, consequence and incident of the essential error, and all that has come before.
Where Anthony Peake's work comes in is as a fusion of the sociology of religion with postmodern theories of consciousness and cognitive/neurological sciences' insights. Peter Novak, in his "Division of Consciousness" to my thinking fails where Peake advances, due to the former's obsession with reincarnation and his mania for Christian judgement and rapture. I think Peake creates a lens which lends a view far more subtle and profound, which is why I continue to highly recommend his text.
Friday, 7 December 2007
Throughout my young adulthood and stemming in part from my serious academic study of philosophy, I have held a conception of a second self. I experienced this vaguely and sporadically. I viewed it within the framework of the Kierkegaardian eternal (hence, out of time) and as somewhat akin to the OverSelf/Soul of James "of which we are but the mutilated expression.". It was not until my late 30s that I actually began to see it's secret animus at work, and to understand it's prescient power.
In 2002 my husband and I began taking trips up to Provincetown on Cape Cod, MA. We were exploring the works of playwright Tennessee Williams, who had lived and written there. It was a period in which we were entering the second half of married life, and had grown into soulmates, work partners, and best friends; we also had built our dream home on a river, and work opportunities were broadening. I was approaching 40, and he, 50. In short, there was every reason to expect a full and happy harvest.
It was at this time that a series of dreams and synchronicities began occuring. I will not go into them all, but they were uncanny in nature. They pointed toward an end, a death. Once a voice spoke in my head as I was drifing off to sleep. It sounded like my own, but magnified and slightly mechanical. It said, "This devastation will be worse.". The only prior devastation I could think of was a period of crisis we had gone through at the begining of our marriage, and conditions were far superior to that time's. I had also long harbored a fear that my husband would fall ill at age 50 and die in the manner my father had. But again, my husband was fit, trim, a nonsmoker/drinker, who ate well and exersized; he had good doctor's check-ups and there was no history of such an illness in his family. But twice in dreams I was wandering through Provincetown alone, near a cemetary (none such in real life) and in another, a doctor stared at me gravely. There are many more to tell but time and space do not permit their recounting. But they were all markedly uncanny.
Suffice it to say, my husband suddenly fell ill in early 2004. By early 2006 he was dead. It was the illness that had killed my father nearly 3 decades earlier , right down to the details, and their deaths both occured in mid-March.
I could take no comfort in concepts of a distant heaven, nor in mediumship or the like. My sole view of immortality had been Nietzschean eternal recurrence, but my interest had been academic, and based on ethics and valuation. I had new dreams in which my husband's surgeon was staying in a chalet with a spiral staircase. He was trying to offer me some hope, and it was though he were revealing some key which I could not make out. The doctor in real life bizarrely bears a resemblence to Anthony Peake. (I am not certain of the meaning, but it resonates with spirit and intuiton). The accidental finding of your essay "Cheating the Ferryman: A new paridigm of immortality" (not sure of exact title) while on the internet was fortuitous and healing.
This has been a brief sketch that does not do justice to the tumultuous and eerie unfolding of events that spanned 2002-06. Were I to present the full details you would gain a clearer picture of their impressive nature, but it would take many posts to do so.
Thursday, 6 December 2007
By the way, the movie confirms something that I have long suspected but avoided doing because of clearly negative connotations - the correct pronunciation of daemon is deemon not daymon. Now that people will be more used to this I will correct it in my talks and lectures.
Wednesday, 5 December 2007
I was expecting a little bit longer than seven minutes so it was quite a challenge to explain CTF in such a short time. However I have been told by the producer that this was a short introduction for a longer phone-in.
Although it was never my intention to have the reviewer remove her comments from Amazon and any other places she may have posted it. She has nevertheless decided to do so.
Although her words and comments stung me quite a lot she was still entitled to make them. Clearly most people find ITLAD to be an enjoyable read. However I know that many of you like the book but do not agree with the conclusions. That is great. After all CTF is only a theory. I am sure that a completely different conclusion could be drawn from exactly the same information as presented in the book. That is why I set this blog up. I want to reproduce those late night, after the pub discussions on life, the universe and everything. Indeed that is really what ITLAD is - a proposal (or maybe even, as some of you have said to me, a work-in-progress).
Can I thank all of you that rallied round when the reviews appeared. It was much appreciated as was the regular comment that I should 'keep things in perspective'.
However I am still very concerned about her comments with regard to the referencing. If she is right I thank her for pointing this out. I will check this out when I have the time.
Tuesday, 4 December 2007
Also note that with reference to my article Brent has kindly reproduced an article written by John Keel many years ago. In this John discusses the role of what he terms 'pseudo-epilepsy' in the light of UFO abductees. In my opinion this phenomena and CTF have similar roots. Indeed I have been in contact with the famous abductee Whitley Strieber. Whitley has requested a copy of the book I am hoping that he will send his observations to me in due course.
I was honoured to be an the same programme as one of my all time favourite actors - Dennis Hopper. Unfortunately I didn't meet him. I would have been keen to ask him about three of my favourite movies in which he acted - Apocalypse Now, Blue Velvet and Easy Rider. I am not sure how long this is available for but I suspect that it will just be for today.
Saturday, 1 December 2007
last week my husband was painting our kids playroom, he was up a ladder and had the radio playing through the TV - Heart FM (it plays mainly R&B of the 80's) when the TV decided to turn itself off then turn itself back on and play Chris Barber 'Bugle Boy March' at full volume - the tune we had played at my father-in-laws funeral and not a tune that would be played on 'Heart FM'.
My father-in-law died last September and would have been very interested in this blog as we often discussed such matters even to the extent that we made a pact that whoever went first would try to make contact from the afterlife - obviously that was before he was diagnosed with terminal cancer.
I don't know how the TV experience would fall into us being on a continuous cycle of birth - death - birth - death etc etc... But, I do know for sure that my father-in-law is trying to let us know that he continues to live on....
I'm now wondering if there is a possibility that everything that has ever happened is happening now - all at once?, that our past, present and future including our death and time spent in the afterlife is actually existing at the same universal time and that is why we sometimes have deja vous or experience uncanny coincidences or warnings of impending danger or vivid flashbacks like, something trivial that happened when we were children seemed like it only just happened, because, for a fleeting second it is remembered with such clarity. If this is to be true then could our daemon's actually be us in our future when we are in the afterlife stage being our 'higher selves'? emmmm.......
Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Only one thing troubles me - shouldn't it take NINE particles hitting the detector to kill the cat :)
Monday, 26 November 2007
The link is
I have been trying to have the broadsheets become aware of CTF without success. This may be the opportunity.
...The same fifteen people had all experienced Déjà vu. Common sense is that are memories are based on past experience. Is this true, or can Déjà vu be a memory of a future experience? One third of the respondents believed that they knew what was going to happen, and what they believed would happen, did happen. The author has experience in this area as well:
When I was about 10 years old, in Naugatuck Connecticut, my grandmother took me to a roller skating rink that used to be a movie theater. As I looked around, everything and everyone was exactly where they were in my memory of what was happening. As I turned my head several ways, I could not make anything happen differently than it was in memory. I realized that I was engaged in a déjà vu. Something happened that doesn’t normally happen. I was able to speed up my memory of what was happening and knew that a couple was about to turn the corner into my view. I had never in my short life seen these people. Within a couple seconds, the couple turned the corner. Everything about the situation was true to my memory. The people, their clothes, the angle of view, and the obstructions between the couple and me were all the same. Though I may have experienced this to a lesser degree,I cannot be completely sure that it has ever happened since.
MWI is one of the central themes of CTF and an understanding of why such a strange theory came about is crucial if one wants to really understand why so many scientists feel that CTF has logical validity.
If anybody is located within travelling distance of the Wirral I will be doing a series of lectures that will attempt to explain MWI. This lecture has been presented to three different groups of the Scientific & Medical Network and I am told is a reasonable attempt to make understandable a complex but fascinating topic.
These talks will be at Heswall Library on 2nd February at 1430,Bebington Central Library at 1100 on 9th February and West Kirby Library at 1430 on the 23rd. Note that these are all Saturdays.
I have also been invited to do a similar talk at the Devon & Cornwall Group of the Scientific & Medical Network on the 16th February (time and location to be agreed).
Sunday, 25 November 2007
That would fit in with an eastern religion (Hinduism?) which says that you can descend down to an insect, or rise to a more advanced being on each incarnation. Perhaps in another Everett universe, humanity (and therefore I) would have evolved to creatures more resembling of Angels? This would fit in with Christian/Jewish/Islamic beliefs, if my limited understanding of these religions is correct.
Perhaps the ancients knew about quantum physics all along! Of course, they described these ideas in three dimensional terms (e.g. Heaven being 'up', hell 'down') but I don't think their understanding was any less for that!
Friday, 23 November 2007
Allied to this and clearer, is that when I'm weak through a migraine attack or other illness, my hold on the world slides noticeably (The new male dog becomes dominant and starts trying to take over the house (again) or my partner starts ranting and raving at me to get a job or wants me to leave etc.). Also as pointed out above, my physical hold on the world obviously slides and I drop things etc.
Being on this channel it will be repeated several times, so don't worry if you miss it the first time.
Thursday, 22 November 2007
Other films such as 12 monkeys, The Matrix, Donny Darko and Vanilla Sky, were mentioned in our previous conversations but this film seems to have struck a cord with me as i've watched it for a second time today. In an attempt to keep this relavent i'd ask any other members to contribute their thoughts and feelings about films which cover similar areas to this blog, aswell as asking Anthony for his thoughts on this.
Wednesday, 21 November 2007
It began when I was living in London. I had this sudden urge to visit my brother's house, one he shared with some others. When I got there I found he was at work and the place was empty but for Jane, the only female member of the household. One thing led to another and the situation blossomed into a relationship. It transpired that when I turned up she was contemplating suicide and my appearance saved her from that. We stayed in the house during a kind of incubation period that lasted several weeks. In this time we both felt powerful forces at work in the form of Biblical proportions, that we both thought of as Jesus and the disciples (Does this make us both insane as it was a shared delusion?). I felt that I was part of a group - the rest being non-corporeal and that I was their with Jane, to give birth to a powerful spiritual being (A second coming?). Anyway the situation fell apart when I left to do some shopping after being cooped up with her for several weeks. When I got back, it turned out she'd walked out of the house in just her dressing gown and got dragged off to the local hospital, just up the road and then the local looney bin, which was just a little further up on the same road (She'd got picked up quickly because the police station was just round the back of the house on a parallel road). I got her out of the mental hospital but that was the end of the relationship and I never saw her again: It transpired that this was the second episode in her life where she had walked out on the street like this - the first was when a boyfriend had dumped her and again she'd been picked up and carted away to a mental hospital and been diagnosed as being Schizophrenic.
Another related point is that certain things/processes occur at certain levels, where the conditions are right for their existence - hence synchronicity doesn't occur all the time, we don't see ghosts or flying saucers daily, we don't have depth of thought and great insights. Science doesn't believe in the paranormal because it cannot be reproduced in the laboratory easily but it already knows that chemical and physical reactions need environmental control to be successfully created by them, themselves (Some elements only exist in the lab because they have been artificially made for instance, so why not the paranormal?).
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
In actual fact it is a really great site for any of you (and I suspect that that will be all of you) who love books. You can place the contents of your bookcase on it and then contact others who share your interests. It is quite good fun.
Anyway it would be great if some of you decided to get involved in this venture as well but I will quite understand if you don't - after all there is only so much time in a day!
Sunday, 18 November 2007
I am sure that this is the wrong way round.
have just checked this out with my wife (strong maths and sciences biased & very grounded rationalist) and my father-in-law who is up here from Devon for the weekend (engineer and similar to his daughter). They both see the dancer going clockwise. I could only see it as counter-clockwise. They both agree that the descriptions are reversed in that they are firmly in the dominant hemisphere camp whereas in their opinions I am clearly a non-dominant hemisphere type being am much more intuitive etc. Clearly we are different but the descriptions are in reverse. I think that non-dominant (right brain) will see the dancer going anticlockwise and the dominant (left brain) will see her dance clockwise.
However the moment I decided to write something I looked at the screen and she had changed direction to clockwise. Clearly this was because I wasw using my left brain (dominant) to write something. Simply fascinating.
I think that this is a fantastic test to show if a person is 'Daemon' or 'Eidolon' dominant.
What do you think?
Friday, 16 November 2007
I implemented these processes by splitting them into a forward time component and a reverse time component, the second of which is applied to the stimulus data in reverse.
This has set me wondering: We see the Daemon as the 'higher being' because it has access to the future, but maybe the Daemon and Eidelon are symmetric equals. Maybe the Eidelon seems as magical to the Daemon as the Daemon seems to the Eidelon!!
Causality is one of the enigmas of our existence. Maybe, as beings, we became split into causal and anti-causal components, one seeing the past, the other the future. It maybe that the Daemon sees causality too - in reverse by our standards - but appearing no less enigmatic.
They are backing out of this world in a fit of pique (rage abandonment or blowing a fuse because you cannot control something outside of you - a kind of existential panic, where you feel you are not really here as in dream paralysis). Wally Thornhill talks of the Electric Universe on his site and I think we equate anger with stormy weather for the same reason - it is a violent attempt to ground energy as film from space missions have shown - we only see the strike from the clouds, down not space into the clouds as was recently discovered.
In Carlos Castenadas Don Juan books, it was mentioned that the calves are where energy is stored for travel (One of the later books) - probably as a springboard effect, catapulting you forward somewhere. Well I get that, along with terrible tension in various joints (I'm always cracking my knuckles, neck, shoulders, wrists, lower back, knees, ankles and left big toe (?)). I always put most of my migraine attack effects down to travel sickness. Since then I've expanded my knowledge of the situation to take in alcohol poisoning, altitude sickness and the bends - all of which are about pressure change, which led me to wonder if a decompression chamber would help in attacks (An email to The Medical Research Council, revealed a successful experiment had been carried out on this and I suggested to some migraine charities that perhaps a Gamow Bag as used for mountain sickness, might be a better alternative as it was portable but nobody took me up on it, not even the inventor himself). Last note on this - could this explain why it was recorded that when somebody dies, they lose a few ounces in weight? Could it be that literally the pressure is off them and would people in similar situations, show the same loss, even if not necessarily dead? (NDE's, TLE experiencers, Migraine sufferers, people astrally projecting etc).
I call this movement between states, The Artist Effect or moving forward to act (alter) unconsciously, or back to examine what's happened/ been done. Life is having your nose pressed up against a window, looking in - reality is turning round and seeing the real world in all its entirety (The paranormal taps us on the shoulder, to take our focus off the small dream we have all our attention on, to remind us that there is a bigger picture out there in infinite space/ through eternal time).
The reason that normal conscious knowledge is poor could be that we suppress it, to keep our eye on the ball (Action is visual 'reaction' - thought (contemplation/meditation) requires stillness of body (action replay): 'Don't distract me with chatter - I'm watching the game!' (intellect versus e-motion or the illusion of reality caused by immersion in it i.e. moving with it versus standing back (disconnection) and seeing it as an illusion, separate from the self: Emotion, sound and Eidolon versus intellect, sight and The Daemon (The past is lived internally, in the driving seat but viewed externally because you've driven past that point and are looking back on it or the car is parked and you're unconscious (immobile). Why do some people have life reviews and others don't? Think of a plane crash. The life reviewer parachutes out of it before it crashes, watching his life go down inevitably, slowly in the distance. The non-reviewer (materialist) hangs onto the controls like grim death, going down with the plane, hands on the controls/ face pressed up against the window, refusing to give into death until it leaves him no choice but to acknowledge he's dead.
Observation stops something in its tracks - freedom is taking our attention off it and allowing it to be/do whatever it wants itself - unharnessed, uncontrolled: The Observer Effect could be why we get the answer we expect - we make it.
Thursday, 15 November 2007
Secondly, I wouldn't say Gnosticism died out, so much as escaped (served its purpose and left). It was an escape tunnel from the conflict that ensured the survival of Christianity etc. (Conflict forms matter - see arrows pointing inwards analogy in previous post or Scientology's 'ridge' of energy, plus post before this one by me, on intelligent design and lies). Another thing is that dualism cannot help but be stumbled upon over and over again (self-discovery) - so, unlike hypocrisy, it isn't an attempt to be unique (special - capturing you by your ego) but accepting your sameness (commonality with all life).
In this state of grace/bliss, you can't hold back anything, physical or mental (No secrets or lies/ no possessions). Patrick McGoohans TV series 'The Prisoner', covered this i.e. The freedom of the individual to explore and create, versus society's (The other 'state') urge to control you and get you to conform/tow the party line: If there is only you in the universe as a force, who else is to blame for your failures/ the way things are? (No subordinates). You're either a pack animal (follower) or a loner (individual) - cat or dog people (Beverly Nicholls).
On the question of accident or purpose, with regards to NDE's - personally I believe that if the universe was built on deliberate intent: Mind creates form from energy, turning it into matter (i.e. solidifying it, creating building blocks through evolution, to reach this stage with intelligent, opposable thumbed bipeds), then 'accident' is a concept or belief not a fact. Think of it like this - if you want to build something, you first need an idea, then to amass the raw materials for it, before refining them to fit your purpose. As you learn more about the product you built, you refine it even more, improving things as you go along - from Model T to a modern, state-of-the-art, car. Now look at the world. Without the mineral kingdom, the plant one could not have got hold. Without plants, animals couldn't have come along and without animals, no us. I see an intelligent design, a purpose to life by an invisible presence, continually leading us forward as beings, much as a good teachers presence is almost invisible as they lead us to seemingly make discoveries on our own but they know where they are taking us as 'they have been there themselves, before' (The Daemon). 'God knows' what the eventual form will be but we don't, until later - just as raw processors in car factories continue their part in the chain, without needing to know what the end product of their effort is, even if the vehicle designer does (unconscious direction/part of the whole dream but not the dreamer).
It's the Daemon that lives on and is eternal - Eidolon is the shell (Don Juans mould of man), a vehicle to get you from A to Be (past to future, through/as the medium of the present:- with time itself as wear and tear)
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
Accident or purpose(NDE's)? Belief not reality: If universe, deliberate intent (building blocks to reach us as we are now) then the idea that's its all 'accidental', is just a concept, ignoring evolution as a deliberate strategy by a higher power. If daemon keeps going forward into the future, then it is an intelligence with purpose - not just for the individual but all of life (see related post below plus similar posts by me on this blog)
Time and life as a journey is central to Eidolon if not Daemon, I believe (Thought - inner quest versus action - outer quest). The pills I'm taking now for my migraines now are sedatives, which coupled with the fact I'm dreaming consistently again, plus as I said I seem to have also cut off from UFO's as a subject too, symbolizing the future, and higher education, symbolizing the mind/intellect, means I'm moving into the past (concentrating on the physical): I used to dream about being at university all the time, now it is a rare subject. Sleeping where you don't (the Lethe effect) is I believe because you're entering the future - where, when you re-member it, you're slipping into the past (Catching up with Eidolon/sorting out material situations) as my dream about Diss, the other night, proved.
I get time jumps, like Preistly's dying youth, but mine is about the direction the world is taking (more intuitive). For instance I read or see something on TV and know what the next stage/move should be and I don't think I'm alone in this ability.
I remember reading somewhere that the brain isn't there so much to process information as to censor it. This would explain Aspergers Syndrome sufferers difficulty with incoming sensory data and ordinary peopes ability to handle it.
I think Kim Peak (The character 'The Rain Man' was based on) is unique in this respect, in that having a bridge between both sides of the brain, means he doesn't have overwhelm problems.
Does anybody else out there have similar memories of human/ animal reaction or visions of loved ones seen or sensed like this?
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
A picture is worth a thousand words. Autistic people have a problem with sequencing, which is why data processing eludes them (I could never see the sense of gears for instance - why not just an accelerator?). This is why words confuse them as they have to work out the order and meaning from that, to make sense of the message. This is also why vision is more important to them i.e. instant, whole communication - not charades (guessing games).
VS Ramachandran and 'Ingrid', sounds like someone watching a film and catching each frame individually, rather than as a smooth flow of seeming continuity (Hand cranked projectors of old and the strobe effect of silent movies - new films don't have this problem as they are faster, so you can censor out gaps). It's similar to when you're ill or suffering from the effects of alcohol - you can't scan across a vista but get image drag instead. By the way because this is the way we see, doesn't mean that, that is the way the world is in fact: Things move or stay still but it is us that creates stills of life, not life that necessarily creates still pictures of itself, from moving or seemingly still objects.
Monday, 12 November 2007
They want to talk to me about the links between CTF and the new film The Golden Compass. This film will be on general release on the 5th December. Clearly within Merseyside this can be listened to on normal radio. For others this can be listened to on line at:
I will discuss this interview again nearer the time.
If you have the time do take a look at Brent's site. In my opinion it is very interesting, particularly to those of us interested in the UFO phenomenon.
Saturday, 10 November 2007
"I have found a series of letters that PKD wrote to a pen pal in 1974 on a really obscure personal website set up by the lady in question herself. I have most of the biographies of Dick and I regularly check out most of the websites on him and I have never heard of these letters. They seem virtually unknown. Imagine my excitement when I came across a zeroxed copy of one particular type-written letter that he sent to her on May 9th 1974. This date is very important because Dick had just encountered his Daemon in mid March of that year (he called it various names including AI, Sophia and VALIS). The letter is not that unusual but there is a hand-written note at the bottom that reads "P.S. What really scares me most, Claudia, is that I can often recall the future." Now what excites me about this is not just that he claims to see the future but his use of words (and Phil Dick was always very specific about his word use). He says that he 'recall(s) the future'. This implies that he senses that this is a re-experience of an already lived event. If you have read my first book you will be aware that this idea is absolutely central to my theory. We are all living our lives again in an inwardly generated illusion. Deja Vu (Vecu) is a short-term remembering of the last time you lived this moment. I argue that those with TLE and schizophrenia have uncontrolled access to these 'memories' and that is why they experience regular deja vu and precognitive feelings. It has long been argued that PKD had TLE and he himself claimed that he had been diagnosed as a schizophrenic. I rest my case!"
It would be good to hear from any of you 'Dickheads' out there with regard to this fascinating bit of information.
Thursday, 8 November 2007
I remember coming out of Scientology and having this vision of future entertainment called Sensies (holograms that could be projected into mid-air - I don't know onto what medium but it may have been electro-magnetic vapour) and Feelies (again maybe electro-magnetic but creating the impression of something solid, through magnetic repulsion), that would unite one day to truly create the physical as well as visual illusions of reality. Holograms work through creating interference patterns (Scientology again has a similar idea but calls it a ridge of energy) and this is I believe partly what creates the illusion of physical reality as opposed to the point above about involvement and reality as a cognative effect. By this I mean think of four arrows pointing inwards to create concentration upon a single point in space and time versus pointing outwards and moving in that direction, to disperse energy/attention away from somewhere (expansive as opposed to contractive). As a concrete example think of a hand crushing a plastic bag up in its fist or relaxing into an outstretched palm and letting the bag grow again.
I also believe this ties into morality and ethics because conflict leads to crushing of reality (shrinking of perception) and peaceful co-existance to expansion of consciousness/conscience (Seeing interdependence of everything and it's survival interlinked with yours - good for us, good for it/ bad for us, bad for it (how anything works is how everything works at basic).
Your section on Jesus and Gnosticism in the book comes into this but I shall mention that in a later posting where it is more relevant and can be concentrated upon rather than lost in the reality angle.
Not sure if this totally relevant to Daemon and Eidolon, except as how conflict may take us away from peace and the greater picture, leaving us trapped in a prison cell that destroys awareness of other realities, outside of us. What is perception but awareness of difference? (sensations/eidolon/childhood). What is thought but the same, internally? (daemon/adulthood). Consciousness (sight) is the full stop on action as unconsciousness (sound/ release)starts it up: Concentration and dispersal of attention (energy).
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
Maybe fever (internal heat) confirms Einsteins belief that time slows down, the nearer we reach the speed of light, if as you say, the former (heat) is just a facet of the latter (light): The case of the Doctors Wife in the book. Could this also be why dance leads to mystical states? (Heated up particles (being) projected into the future).
This goes back to what I said elsewhere about matter and energy (body and spirit) being like a volcano - the live part of us (potential) lies within and the dead part (personal history) surrounds us as a crust. Energy exists as potential - when it
takes form it becomes actual (matter). Think of a building. It requires a plan to get built. Materials may exist independently but construction requires them to be collected together in one place (a-massed), then thrown up to form a particular shape. Entropy ensures the building decays over time (goes back to potential) as only when new is anything pristine (perfect). Without maintenance the structure collapses - with it 'something' is always in this particular place, unless deliberately destroyed (pulled down).
Now is the border between future and past, and where we are at, at a particular time (on matter/in space): The cusp of being, indicated in an old woodcut, showing a man poking his head through the daylight air and coming out into the night sky (Think also of walking through a waterfall, where the past is a blur of water and the future an impenetrable rock - only the present air reveals anything visible). Dissect the body into back and front, and you'll see we're always heading into the future and away from the past (sensing/looking out for what is to come and ignoring (leaving behind) what is gone).
The speed at which time flows (or not) is dependent upon release or binding of matter as energy (or energy being slowed down and converted into matter: Aimed forward, it pushes you back into the past (memory) - aimed backwards it projects you into the future (imagination). Think of a water cannon at the front or a rocket booster on your back.
Lori Anderson wrote a song (meditation) on walking, which made me realize that we project (teleport) ourselves forward through space/time and re-collect ourselves as matter (form) at the other end (Thrower and catcher). Society works this way too - think of one of those Slinky toys (springs) that could 'walk' down stairs. This also puts a new light on Christs saying that the first will be last and the last, first (top,bottom and bottom, top) as a natural consequence of movement (flow).
* Measurement, like language, can take any form you like because it is arbitary, not obligatory (set in stone). If this was not the case then there wouldn't be several ways of measuring things or more than one tongue upon the Earth.
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
And here are my thoughts on reincarnation, I would be very interested to here what anyone else thinks. I was considering this today as I have had flash back to past lives before and today for the first time I came up with an alternative reason for them. Unless I have miss-understood the book ( which is very possible knowing me) What if we have only every lived our life in this time period again and again, and say we had lived a hundered times this life, isn't it possible that in all those previous times we would have picked up information about a person or place, even something as vague as a strangers name, then in each life we learn a little more about that person and then maybe in this life because of all the information we have, if we were regressed we could bring up even obscure things and details, even create our own movie to go with it. It would all be tracable but it wouldn't mean we had ever lived it. I thought I was a Knights Crussader but when you think of all the information there is today about them and the films, I could easily have watched all these before and be fully armed with the information needed.
Well there you are, my possible version of it. Thanks for reading and let me know what you think.
Sunday, 4 November 2007
Even the Christian view fits in: We are not reincarnated as such, and to 'degenerate' (by which I mean behave in a way contrary to the wisdom of the Daemon) will lead to ever worse incarnations until, eventually, you inhabit a truly horrible Everett universe. In that respect, Heaven, Earth and Hell can be interpreted as alternative universes. I suspect CTF follows even more closely the eastern religions of Hinduism and Buddhism.
Maybe in some universes past tyrants sought help for whatever emotional turmoil lead to their behaviour. Maybe there is a truly heavenly outcome for humanity that one can reach if we listen well enough to our Daemon!
Maybe CTF is the 'Unification Theory' which will one day unite the world religions (not to mention religion and science)? I would love to think CTF is the key to future peace and enlightenment. I live in hope :)
Central two the storyline are three elements of a great deal interest to us; the Daemon-Eidolon Dyad, The Everett's Many Worlds Interpretation of quantum physics (MWI) and Gnostic theology. For those of you who have read ITLAD you will know that these are also the cental themes of my Cheating The Ferryman theory (CTF).
I am hoping that this may be the opportunity I have been waiting for. Interest in Daemons will be at fever pitch from December onwards. I am sure the film is going to be massive so the concept of the Daemon will be discussed in papers, magazines and on the media. Now we know that the Daemon is far more than just a fictional device used by Philip Pullman - it is a provable part of the human psychi. The same will happen with regard to MWI and Gnosticism, but probably less so than interest in the cuddly Daemon Pantalaimon.
I am keen for my theory to be broadcast to as many people as possible. I know that I am really asking a lot here but I am hoping that being a member of this group means that you are, like me, really taken by the CTF theory and want it to be much better known outside of our small circle. Can you help me on this?
For example phone calls to local radio stations when the inevitable discussions take place with regard to the film (I know that it will be hotly debated because of the seemingly anti-religious theme of the film). Also letters to national newspapers will also be of a great help. Magazines such as Fortean Times, New Scientist, Focus etc also leap to mind. I am sure that those of you outside the UK all have similar magazines in your country.
One particular avenue seems very promising. People can post comments on the NMDB website - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0385752/plotsummary I know that this is read by thousands of people.
Obviously I will be doing all I can to publicise the book to as many media areas as possible. But I am an unknown, first-time, writer that only a handful of people are aware of
I promise that I will not forget any assistance that you give at this crucial stage. This could be the time that ITLAD breaks into the Weltgeist!
You can help me make it happen.
Thursday, 1 November 2007
Maybe I am there. Maybe in another universe chocolate is toxic. Here's something I wrote a few years back:
God, are you there?
I am always here Kellen. What do you want?
I don’t like to seem ungrateful… Its about my family.
I think I would have been happier if I had been born to more caring parents.
And you would like me to arrange this?
Yes Kellen, this is not the first time. On six other occasions you have come here seeking changes in your fortunes. Last time you wanted to be born to greater affluence. Before that you wanted better health. I can do all of these things of course, but I doubt you understand that altering the course of events this way inevitably has consequences for others’ lives.
I-I don’t know what to say. I’m so sorry. I…
Do you still wish me to honour your request?
Yes – yes, there is something I want to ask of you.
Oh Kellen, when will you ever learn?
But what I ask is not what I came for. God, I want you to return me to the life you originally gave me.
Then Kellen, I must turn you away. For that is the life you have now. Yes my dear Kellen – your efforts to mould your life into the perfection you sought finally brought you back to where you started, as I knew they would.
Seventh time lucky I suppose.
No Kellen, FIRST time lucky.
Wednesday, 31 October 2007
When i first conversed with Anthony and again most recently, i mentioned to him about Derren Brown's work. A large amount of what Derren Brown does has similar insight, arguably, to Anthony's theory. In one experiment he hires two actors to have a collision in a crowded train station, he then get's a (apparently!) random woman ,who, with his assistance ,is able to replay the incident, zooming in on particular detail. This, in particular, lends itself to Anthony's theory on life being a recording similar to that of a dvd, which can be replayed, with the right technology under certain conditions. This is an example of just one, of many great "bits" that Derren Brown has done. I've seen him perform twice and read his first two books. His first is slightly more "card trick focused" but there is still some great theory in there. His second, is one of the best books i've read with a lot more insight in to his opinions and theories.
If anybody has been on the moon or perhaps that island from Lost for the past 6 or 7 years, Derren Brown is a performer that fuses the power of suggestion, psychology, misdirection and showmanship to create some of the greatest tricks of the mind you will ever see. Anthony tells me there is a member here who is in contact with him and also that he is finding Anthony's work to be fascinating.
Is it possible that a lot of his work requires communicating with the Daemon? There are many things which i'm sure his work can lend to Anthony's theory.
Also i'm a huge fan of his and i wanted to make sure he saw through my nakedly self-serving attempt to suck-up, he does great work, yes he surely does.
You've probably gathered by now I'm preoccupied with the notion of cicrular time!
Actually, I think it's circular whatever the temporal shape of the universe (discounting the finite bounded option e.g. a brick wall at some point in time beyond which there is nothing).
If the universe is infinite, then even the tiniest probability gets magnified. We know that it is not a case of if an event of finite probability will occur, but how frequently. And, as Tony pointed out in his book somewhere, any finite system must eventually come around to the same state. So even an infinite universe is de facto cyclic. In fact, I'm getting tired of saying this :)
The idea that death means total insensitivity should not come as a worry. It means that these unimaginable periods of time between our cyclic incarnations pass instantly.
About ghosts: In one Everett universe, the Roman Empire never fell (and didn't progress). In this universe at this moment, Roman legions march through our houses. Also, while I am alive in my universe, in others I died in my operation last year, in a collision with a lorry wheel on the motorway ten years ago, or in a childhood accident.
Some Everett universes are extremely close to this one - like a map of Durham is very close to Northampton in my road atlas. I can well believe that our Eidelon (is that correct spelling) drifts a little off-target occasionally, causing long dead or fantastic alternatives to come into view.
Related to this is the fact that ghosts are associated with the dark as you'd expect with a projected image or print through of an earlier image, where the tape had been used several times (Live ghosts that respond to your existence are something else - stone tapes are what I mean here). A theory mooted in Anomaly, the journal of ASSAP (Association for the Scientific Study of Anomalous Phenomena) suggested that water was associated with ghosts and I wondered from that if the images were somehow projected onto wayer droplets, suspended in the air?
Tuesday, 30 October 2007
Anyway I am driving along in pretty crappy driving conditions. Rain and hail are blasting down and the traffic is both heavy and fast. I have my Archos playing away through the car stereo. As I mentioned in the earlier comment I have over 14,000 MP3 tracks on the Archos so the chance of any one specific track coming up is remote in the extreme. As I am driving along a lorry comes out in front of me with a load of crash-barriers on the back. They looked fairly securely tied so I has happy to drive a short distance behind it. Suddenly a new track comes up on random play. It is 'Round of Blues' by Shawn Colvin. Now there is a history to this particular song. Way back in 1992 I had first heard this track on a free CD that came with a UK music magazine. From the first few bars I knew that this song would be important to me in some strange way that I could not describe. a few days later I bought the album with the track on it (Fat City). For some strange reason that I only now understand I said to my then (common-law) wife that this was the song I wanted played at my funeral. As the words came out of my mouth I remember thinking 'where on earth did that come from'. So strong was this feeling that I continued mentioning this over the years. When I met my present wife I again found myself stressing this self same instruction. I remember once playing the song to her so that she would remember it. Clearly, as I now know, my Daemon was at work.
So you can imagine my shock when this track suddenly appeared on my car stereo. I knew it was a warning. For some reason I put my breaks on and moved my car from the middle lane into the slow lane (my car at the time was a beautifully responsive Mazda RX-8 (as if you wanted to know that) so I was swiftly out of the way of the lorry in front. A split second after I moved, with Shawn still singing away, the barriers detached themselves and crashed down onto the motorway, landing exactly were I would have been. I would have hit them at sixty miles an hour. There is no way I would have survived. Fortunately because I moved no cars were close enough to be involved and the traffic easily negotiated itself around the obstruction.
If CTF is correct then the very last thing I would have perceived in my last life would have been the song 'Round of Blues'. It is as if I had a deep past-life memory association with my death and that song. This is why my Daemon planted the message of Fat City equals funeral. But this saved my life this time "round" as well because I knew that death was close!
But do you want to know what has really just freaked me out - I just looked up the lyrics which I have never really done before. I more enjoyed the tune and its bouncy guitar sound. What I just read made my blood run cold:
Here we go again
Another round of blues
Several miles ago
I set down my angel shoes
On a lost highway
For a better view
We lost a lot today
We get it back tomorrow
I hear the sound of wheels
I know the rainbow's end.
Scary isn't it - just how relevant are the words "Several miles agoI set down my angel shoes on a lost highway" and "I hear the sound of wheels, I know the rainbow's end".
Its things like this that convince me more and more that CTF is more than just a simple theory!
As such there is a continual ‘time-line’ of the same electron. It is, initially e2, it then collides with the positron and, in the guise of the positron goes backwards in time to become the original electron e1 that was caused by the first collision. It then changes time direction by becoming an electron again and carries forward in time. As Davies says:
“In its normal, electron phase, (e2) emits a photon and bounces back in time, then absorbs a photon and rebounds back to the future again. An observer located in time would see two electrons and a positron. But Feynman says this is really only one particle seen three times”.[i]
From this Feynman postulated that all the electrons in the universe are just this one particle bouncing backwards and forwards in time. In other words, as Paul Davies says:
“You and I, the Earth, the sun, the Milky Way and all other galaxies are composed of just one electron (and one photon and one neutron too) seen sqillions of times over. This offers a neat explanation as to why all electrons appear to be identical”.
This will also predict that the universe must be made up of equal amounts of matter and anti-matter, because every ‘zig’ must have a ‘zag’."