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Hi Anthony
Two weeks ago I had never heard of you but ever since hearing you at Ellesmere Port Library I have become more and more certain that what you say is so true and is making me see everything in a new way and its like a door has been opened to me.

Of course I could also be losing my mind and I admit I do have doubts but the more I look into it and especially the events in my own life it seems to make sense about living a parallel life ,deju vu, reincarnation etc.

I should explain that in November I had a breakdown and have been off work since after being diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I am 52 and for the past 30 years or more I have suffered bouts of depression but with the help of antidepressants I recovered and coped. This time however I was at an all time low and after a couple of months on Prozac I was not recovering and getting worse with thinking about death a lot. The only interest I had was reading which distracted my thoughts. I would go to the library every week and stock up with a fresh supply of novels to get me through. It was on one of these library visits that I noticed a card about "Is there life after death" - Anthony Peake will discuss his ideas at EP library Fri 8th Feb. Well that happened to be the next day so I decided to go and see.

I was so amazed by what you said and wasnt expecting to hear anything like that. It made a big impression on me but the next day I kept saying to myself "was I really there listening to all that crazy stuff" it just doesn't seem possible and the doubts kept creeping in. Yet I couldnt get away from the daemon idea as over the last few weeks I had been feeling as if I wasn't in control and couldnt care less about anything but a part of me was in control and sending me to places to get help.

On 11 Feb I had my first appointment with a Therapist at Chester. It was difficult and I left the clinic very emotional but it was a sunny spring day so decided to go for a walk to clear my head. I ended up by the canal,near a little bridge with several barges moored up. Suddenly it brought to mind a scene that a medium had described to me on 26 Jan which made no sense to me then. She said there was also a little yorky dog with me and the song "somewhere over the rainbow". I walked over to the bridge and looked down at the water rushing out of the lock with the sun shining on it and couldnt believe my eyes when I saw a mini rainbow in the water.

The next morning I had the Wizard of Oz running through my head and kept singing the songs from the film. The more I thought about it , the more it seemed to relate to me : the scarecrow (brain not working), tin man ( heart pounding), lion ( bad nerves), Dorothy (lost! ). Decided to call my daemon Harry and let him show me the way.

Dont know why but then decided to look the author up on the internet and discovered that Frank Baum was a member of the Theosophical Society. Never heard of that so looked that up and found out that there is a branch in Chester and its amazing to know that over a 100 years ago people believed in consciousness is universal and there is a higher self.

I am still going through a difficult time but Im begining to think Harry is making me follow the yellow brick road and to just have faith. Even the other day I decided to watch a DVD which was free with the paper a couple of weeks ago. It starred Meryl Streep but I didnt take any notice of what it was about I just put it in the machine. Turned out it was about a boy with epilepsy and guess what the song was playing in the middle - "Somewhere over the rainbow" !

So for now this exploration into your theory and the T Soc is keeping me occupied and hopefully my brain will be restored to full working order in time.

Thanks for opening the door for me.